BRB, Introverting!

So, the other day I was in the car with my mum reminiscing about the wedding (surprise, surprise). 

The topic came up because I was telling her that I'm still running into people I haven't seen since the wedding. I know it won't go on forever, but for the moment I'm still enjoying hearing people's recaps and what they thought, because the one thing I wanted was for our wedding to be personalised, fun and memorable.

One thing that went way beyond our expectations, though, was how memorable it was to everyone to see mine and Steve's parents (and the rest of his family, including his grandmother) tearing up the dance floor!

It was the most surreal sight I've ever seen but was also one of the best, and I've realised I'm not the only one who thinks so, because in almost every "post-wedding" conversation I've had, our family on the dance floor is always one of the topics.

My mum laughed when I told her about what everyone's been saying, jokingly replying that I should tell the videographer to erase all footage of them from the dance floor. She was a bit embarrassed but I told her not to worry because - aside from the fact that it's the best thing ever to see our parents/family enjoying hardstyle - there was absolutely no chance of anyone coming away from our wedding with any negative or judgemental thoughts. 

I feel like I can say this because it's the best thing to come out of being able to control your guest list. And, yes, it's not the easiest thing to be so strict, but at the end of the day I was so thankful that we were, because it resulted in a day and night surrounded by the best people. 

However, fellow and future brides may already know what I'm talking about when I say this, but being strict with the guest list wasn't without its own drawbacks. Even as I tried to explain to people why I was stressing so much about it and why I was being so strict, I had to keep reminding myself about the end goal. My end goal was to be able to look around on the day and know that each person present was there because they play a certain part in our life. Have contributed somehow, or will continue to contribute in some way to our happiness and our growth.

"I thought you were an introvert? How do you know that many people?" 

Throwing it back to a solo from France.

It's paraphrased but that's pretty much what my mum said when I told her that our final count was just shy of a hundred people. But that's just it though, I don't know that many people.

Introvert (n.) - A shy, reticent person.

As an introvert I was already anxious about being the centre of attention (as brides tend to be during weddings). I was fussy about having people there that I didn't know and I was already tired just from thinking about how the day would go. 

But, and I've heard this a lot post-wedding, apparently it didn't seem too evident on the day. Which - Yay! 

But in reality it brings me to this:

Extroverted Introvert - Or 'ambivert', is someone who displays both extroverted and introverted qualities. Who 'switches on' during social situations but recharges their social batteries by spending time alone.

This is the personality trait that keeps me from ever regretting being so strict with the guest list. This is the trait that urges me to look for people who I can share substantial bonds and meaningful connections with.

Beginning of London Summer, Hyde Park w/ a book

I am guilty of feeling guilty for sometimes not "making an effort" to reach out to others, but if there's something I've learned from other introverted friends, it's to not feel bad for needing time alone. 

I've been introverting like crazy since after the wedding. Catching up on books I've wanted to read and trying to get back into weaving the words. It doesn't mean I've been declining all invitations to socialise, but I've definitely been enjoying the quiet time. And if that's not enough, I'm doing April Camp NaNoWriMo again! I was 4 days late due to my indecisiveness but thanks to my writer friends (both online and in RL) I decided why the hell not.

Now to focus on the 15k target word count I imposed on myself.
YAY? *nervous look*

#tbt London

So, you can kind of tell I'm feeling a little homesick for London and using old photos but I still love them just as much! And to all the other Extroverted Introverts out there? Feel free to bask in as much alone time as you need! Everyone who knows you enough will understand and those who don't will either make the effort to, or won't be worth your time anyway.

May your days be filled with silence as you recharge.

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